Photo Phone Friday dump

Post Placement Depression

Struggling a little bit right now....did some research.....thankfully, after reading this article I feel normal.

http://psychcentral.com/news/2010/04/01/postpartum-depression-in-adoptive-parents/12519.html

Fun times at the park

we had a great night tonight.....seeing the silver lining.....I had forgotten what a little one was like.....and just need to find my groove....

Adrien loves pulling his brother

Dear Gramma Great

Why can't they all be like you?  Things have gone from bad to worse in trying to meet birth mom.....foster mom can't let go....Hubby and I are arguing about it.....I feel sick to my stomach about the stuff the foster mom is pulling......I wish you, Gramma Great, was the rule and not the exception...you should be the measuring stick for all foster parents in the world.....you will never know how much your support and love was appreciated through our transition with Adrien....and how lucky EVERY SINGLE person you have touched is.....you are loved....

Nonno

Ryan is home.....and it is good......very busy but very good.  We went to visit my dad yesterday...we try to go about once a week....it was the first visit that Ryan was home forever!  Ryan loves all things mechanical, tractors, power tools, vacuums and the likes....so my dad's place is like his mecca.  We had fun.....lots and lots of fun!

My dad loves his grandkids.....though I think he feels he has more liberties with his daughters kids than my brother's kids....most of that is cultural as daughters tend to stay closer to their families and sons tend to support their wives families.....Not a bad thing, just kinda how it happens. And now there's Ryan, a boy who loves the same things as his Nonno.....and Adrien is starting to explore more too, with things that Ryan and Nonno like.....I love it! 

Nonno, the story teller

Dear Adrien
I'm writing this on the night before your brother joins our family forever.  There are things I want to say to you and share my wishes with you.
Things are changing for you, they have to.....we wanted to give you a sibling and we want to raise another child.  You have been the sunlight in our lives since you came home.  You have been gentle, amazing, smart and loving.  You are a wonderful person with so much charisma in you that it shines through.  Tonight, on the eve that you become a big brother permanently, I am sad and excited for you and us.  You and I have had many many wonderful adventures....

My love, I can't even describe how I'm feeling right now....just now, that I will love you forever.....you will always be my baby boy.......you are forever in my heart

Choices

I have decided to keep writing here......things have happened and I need my safe internet world to vent.....to people that hopefully won't judge me.....so here goes.....
The last 5 weeks have been the longest adoption transition ever.....starting out on this road for a second time, I thought all foster parents were like the Greats....(though I knew they were a more special than most)....I thought these foster parents would at least be good....I have dubbed her the Foster Monster.....she has taken liberties, made assumptions and has been passive aggressive throughout Ryan's transition.  I originally started the new blog as a place that Ryan's birth mom could go to see updates and hear about he is doing.....it morphed into my new "spot" to be me.  In retrospect (one of my "problems" is trusting until proven otherwise) I should have kept that blog for just Ryan and this one for our life......so, I'm back.....and Ryan comes home tomorrow.....and I'm temporarily done work for this year.....Our days are filled with taking Adrien to school, appointments and bonding.....It's going to be wonderful!