'Round here

I hate sounding like a downer, I hate complaining about my life, I hate being so needy........but life is getting harder....I've started a new job and am trying to figure out how to balance two jobs, while experiencing one of the biggest learning curves of my life, while then doing BOTH jobs.....and neither one of them being done well.  Then imagine a having a child who is having nightmares or something all night and keeps everyone awake pretty much all night, then you have another one who wants to know his BM, he has questions and needs to have them answered (no, we are NOT contacting the birth family but I will be contacting the social worker and request that she try a bit harder to get us a picture of BM....and trying to deal with my own feelings about the whole thing.....needless to say, I have been under a lot of pressure (self induced) and stress about being everything I needed to and so much more.....I crashed two weekends ago.....and I crashed hard.  Hubby made a suggestion about something and I went cuckoo.....I was crying and then couldn't stop crying, then was choking from laughing because I was so amused that I couldn't stop crying....I am slowly crawling back into the sunlight, with a smile!  The boys are doing well.....Adrien's teacher wanted to talk to me and share her concerns about getting him tested as he won't attend during class and they can't get information out of him to see what he knows.....we are working on that......Ryan, oh my poor poor baby Ryan, he had a specialist appointment on Tuesday and she suggested that he wasn't waking up due to nightmares but more likely due to wax build up and the pressure created from it.  He needs to get his ears suctioned and will be seen by an ENT to see if he requires tubes in his ears......I have a night away coming up this weekend.  In the last 4 and a half years of being a parent, this will be the second night I have spent away from Adrien and the first from Ryan.....I get to spend some quality time with the most wonderful girlfriend.....

Adrien writing a story Ryan about Puppies

Halloween 2013, Minions

This is what co sleeping looks like in our house

Mommy date discussion

My attempt at Ryan's 3rd Bday Cake

My Super Hero

So much love, so much happiness, so much fun
So Blessed <3 td="">